Rainy Night

I like raining, especially rainy night. I like the smell, the feel, the sound when water fall on the roof, the crisp air after. So natural, yet so supernatural. And it's so effortlessly romantic especially you are accompany by the right person. I like the town on rainy nights .The street turn to be a shinning star when the light irridiating the wet street, wet building, wet car windscreen, wet windows....All the lights are upside-down, and the town turn to be a looking glass. it's beautiful. The busy city has now become a fairy city!

Listening to the pitter-patter raindrops is another great feeling for us in the rainy night. When the night raining comes with thunder storm, the night would turn to be so secure as we are well covered by a roof. It's just another reason for us to fell asleep easily.

But, it's definitely not for tonight. I just sent darling to airport. He is on business travelling trip to Bintulu and Miri. He will be away for this week. The sky outside was dark, and the evening become so silent and lonely. The raindrops start falling from the sky and they hit my car windscreen. I'm driving to where i am going to survive alone for the coming few days. All of a sudden, i hate this raining night. it's just ruin all my consciousness and tend to be so down about the lonely night.

This is not the first time darling away for business trip but somehow i just feel so down to send him away. the emptiness and quietness turn to be more empty and more quiet. i am afraid of it. Watching tv while doing ironing alone in living room, i thought it wonld be better to kill the loneliness. but it's not!

i hate to be alone!

i hate this lonely rainy night!

i hate darling's frequent business trip!

i hate watching tv programme and doing ironing alone at home tonight!

i hate sleeping alone where he is not holding my hand and held me close to him!

i hate to sleep with only my teddy bear and darling's pillow!

i hate to put on the blanket myself!

i hate to wake up with nobody beside! it's a fear when i found i am alone in the midnight-mare!

i am truly in the state of being alone in salitary isolation.