Sooner or later.......

I am here again. I just can't stop the urge to blog again today.

I rang up my OB this afternoon and suprisingly he is back from his holiday. I told him my problem and without any further explaination, he wanted me to go to hospital immediately. So both of us make a trip to hospital again where I was thinking maybe I won't be sent home after this trip.

We managed to reach the hospital at four and luckily there is no long waiting queue and we got to see the OB immediately. After those usual checking procedure and OB perform a pelvic exam for me to check the effacement level and the cervix dilatation. Evaluation been done and found out I'm still 0cm dilated with a very soft cervix which means that I will deliver anytime from now since I have regular abdominal pain these two days.

Well, I don't know is this a good new or a bad one for me. I always lost my temper and asking hubby when can i get over this hardest moment. I always wanted to wave a goodbye to my big stomach and always wanted to hold my little precious princess in my arm. But when come to this stage, I feel so worried all of a sudden. I couldn't figure out why I feel so. Maybe it's due mainly to the delivery story i heard from other and learned from books, magazine and internet. I am the type who can't tolerate well with pain and I really can't imagine how am I going to bear the pain while I am in active labor and in the delivery process. At first, I opt for the pain-free labor but i've changed my mind now and choose to have a natural birth without any anethestic. I just pray that i can manage everything well with the blessing from God.

It seems like I'm running out of time now. I should really look into my preparation now. We should really short-list the baby's name by now. I should set up my baby cot, I should unpack all the baby apparels, feeding bottles, toys etc. I should figure out the type of formula i'm going to feed my baby. I should finalize the confinement period diet plan. There seems alot of things I should get ready before being sent into the labor wad. And most of all I should grab this precious time to do whatever I love like having a quite dinner with my hubby, watchinng my favourite TV shows.....before my baby is out (and of course before my time is fully occupied by this precious princess).