NoBODY

I just realized i'm nobody for the group of them. well, things gonna happened in the way i never expected.

i resigned from my previous work and i am so lucky that i did it! i couldn't imagine what will happen on me if i am still with them. one's mind is out of control by the others and i have no will and no intention to change theirs but to be frankily, they shouldn't treat me in the way which is so cruel to me.

i thought i did healed my broken heart but i only found that i am over-estimated myself. things happened almost a yearr ago when i am under the stress of marrige planning. my colleague who i'd work with for the two years time betrayed me just because of her jeolousy on my promotion. she did expect to get that promotion but when the management decided to grant me this promotion she turn to be soooo...terrifying. she might smiling to me in front of the top management but tricking me badly behind them.

BE PATIENCE & FORGIVENESS~i keep remind myself to be patient and forgive her sins. but she didnt stop her bad behaviour but be so irreasonable. i am doubted why her EQ is so bad.

Let me tell the truth here....
she tries to approach the other staffs and being so well to them just to try to make bad and false gossips about me.well, i just close my ears even i heard some bad things which is absolutely not meant for me. i keep my mouth shout for the purpose that i hope she willls stop her bad behaviour when she realized in one day but she didnt.
i as a supervisor and i have every responsibility to supervise my staff and my workstation. i have every responsibility to make sure evrything going well in my workplace especially we are doing QUALITY CONTROL. i thought Quality control (QC) is a procedure or set of procedures intended to ensure that a manufactured product or performed service adheres to a defined set of quality criteria or meets the requirements of the client or customer. the extent of QC actions must be determined and real-world data must be collected. no tricks and false results can be accepted in the world of QC but they did it in the other way. she allows the trainee uses 'short-cut' in performing the training activities where i strongly disagree with this. so, you might can expect what happened in the next, the trainee complaints to management i am too strict and she cant stand for my strict-ness!!! well, i am just doing my part and trying to help the company to implement the real meaning of QC.

this is not the worst part of my 3-years remenuation at this company. the worst day comes when the irritable lady broke my stationary at my workstation and left those broken pieces and ask me to vaccum them. woW....i never realized my patience can reach that extend. i do the vaccum quietly for ths sack i want to forgive her. she press her petrol pedal hardly and trying to knock me at the company car park in the next morning. the first time i have this fear feeling , am i going to die accidently or are they going to hurt me without any notice? i dont know. she continue to behave badly by throwing my lunch box on the floor that morning. i am so lucky i keep my eye on every of her action that morning and so lucky that the cleaning aunty told me she found my lunch box on the floor. i still keep my mouth shut until danny reminds me of her intention of doing this.

i asked her nicely why she threw my lunch box and she admit did it purosely because she is not happy with me. she have no intention to apologize to me at the moment. and the worst is the other two girls are trying to cover up her bad behaviour by telling lie too. ok, that's all for my patience, i need to voice it out. i told my boss with the hope they will solve the problem for me.
but my stupid admin manager didnt solve the problem but make it worst. can you imagine, he can allows my staff scolding me in front of those top management... hohoho.... what's a stupid management!!! the old lady refuse to admit her false but telling lie again in front of them which means that everything that i told them previously isnt a fact!! i am who i am and i never telling even a small lie in front of them. i have nothing to comment if they choose to believe on hers.

she told the management she has bad mood and that's why she is trying to knock me that morning! is bad mood can be a reason for you to hurt one's life? can her EQ being that low? i dont understand. my stupid manager come out with no solution. i still remember i keep my mouth shut for thhe whole meeting session just to listen what's their comments. i wrap the meeting with only one sentence~ well, i have nothing to comment since they are a bunch of liar, i just want to do my part well. you are the one that promote me and give me this authority to supervise this section and i have every responsibility on every single aspect of QC jobs and i have to make sure evrything running well under my supervision. if they cant agree with my way of supervision, please do whatever they want but ii will not take any responsibility on their fault in one day. i am just coming here to work but not selling my life to this company. please help me to ensure my safety at this workplace as you might cant explain to my family or my fiancee what happened on me if i lost my life or get hurt here in one day!!!

and the stupid admin manager talk to me personallly later. he said this which i absolutely cant agree with. he said , i am sure things happened for a reason. and i did expect this wills happen in one day but doesnt realized it can be that soon. she is behaving like this just because she cant accept the fact you are being promoted. she has been working for us for three years but we didnt promote her when every supervisor left. due to her qualification. please be understand that she need a way to release her anger...BLAblabla....

BULLSHIT!!! you got to tell her about this but not saying this to me. you have to explain the situation and reason to her but not trying to cover her bad behaviour to me.

i still survive for another 8months ++ in this company where eddie really cant agree with my plan and decision to continue my service with them. it's too dangerous and meaningless according to him. i even cant understand my decision at time too. maybe it's for the sack of money? maybe is for the sack of my strong charracter?but to be honest, the one that keep me goes on my worklife as usual is the strenght from God. i know he wills guide me and protect me through all the ups and downs and he is giving me the chance to forgive them.

thanks God that, everything is over and i need not to work with this bunch of people anymore. it's part of my life and this doesnt meant to kill me but keep me strong! and thanks God that my husband can supports my life and being very supportive when i decided to send in my resign letter.

Goodbye and i wish you all can work peacefully with this weird lady!!

honestly, the thorn is still there and my heart have not healed yet. it takes time and i hope i can really forgive her in one day.